Day 8We wake up at the sound of the alarm clock, fresh and joyous, kissing tenderly to share our yet unspoken love for each other. As I get closer and closer to her, my erect cock pokes her voluptuous pussy, rubbing my hardness between her sensual lips.Laughing as she leaves my mouth, Akari exclaims, “You do have a morning erection.”“Yeah, I need to pee,” I tell her quickly, only now conscious of the pressure in my bladder.Akari continues to laugh as I hastily jump out of the bed for the bathroom. After relieving myself, I join her in the shower room, feeling better now that I’m empty, but even more by the sight of her gorgeous body under the jet of water. We chat as we shower, but it is charged with growing sexual tension. I look at her body with desire, wishing I could be fucking her as she washes her feet, bends over and exposes her pussy to my great pleasure. I’m so locked into my own little fantasy that I’m not realizing I’ve been cleaning my dick for the last minute, only stopping when Akari asks me if I expect to wash away all the dirty things I did to her with my tool. Softly laughing, a plan starts to form for this evening, to soil my cock with Akari’s pussy as she just said. Although, my scheming is interrupted with the arrival of someone.As we are dressing, Natasha comes into the room. Wishing us good morning, she kisses both of us, making me wince as I look away from the sight of Akari’s proximity to her. I still haven’t figured out why I’m so uncomfortable about it, but it’s getting me more and more worked up. Fortunately, neither see me as I’m turning to put our cleaning products into the lockers.“Do you want to do our next evening session tomorrow?” I hear Natasha asks me.Composing my expression, I turn around, an eyebrow raised, questioning if she is speaking to me.“I would like to know how you are progressing with integrating the crew. Last time, we have touched on many things that I want to discuss again,” she explains.I think about it for few seconds, mostly wondering if she will also be inviting me back into a hot session of sex. We had a great time few nights ago; it would be fun to be with her again. Although, now that Akari and I are closer, it feels wrong even though I’m encouraged into it. In any case, I think it would be good for me to talk about the trip so far, regardless of what happens after.“Okay, I think it would be good,” I answer Natasha, but turning immediately to Akari for asking, “If you are okay with it?”“You know you don’t have to ask my permission,” my companion of the last days tells me with a soft smile, not showing a hint of jealousy or concern.I bite my lower lip while looking at Akari. This isn’t the answer I wanted to hear. Should I ask her again or should I drop it?Before I can decide what to do, Natasha looks at Akari and tells her, “As much as you don’t feel the need to permit him, I think he needs to have it from you. Not to be allowed per se, but to know that you are okay with it.”Akari looks at her and nods before answering, “I understand.” Then, looking at me with her most beautiful smile, she tells me, “You have fun tomorrow evening with Natasha, I’m happy for you to see her.”Mirroring her smile, I reply, “Thank you, you are the best.” I approach her and kiss her softly, bringing my arms around her waist to feel her heat against me.“I’m so glad you found each other, you are so beautiful together,” Natasha says as we are still locked together. We part ways and look at her, grateful for the compliment.We let her have the room for herself, not without kissing her on the way out. I go for the door as Akari is with Natasha, not wanting to see any of it, ignoring that it is what they are doing even though I perfectly know they are.Akari and I get our breakfast while continuing our conversation from last evening, chatting about few personal things. As our shifts approach, we part as I’m in engineering all day but not without having a long kiss at the bottom of the stairs. She leaves for the first deck, jiggling her ass for my enjoyment as she moves upstairs. I laugh softly as I go down, shaking my head in wonder at my new and awesome life.As I enter engineering, I find Leet ready to start the day.“Hello, Alex. Good morning,” she tells me with joy.“Good morning, Leet. How are you doing this morning?” I ask her, surprised by her cheerfulness.“I’m full of energy for the day,” she says as she gets closer to me. Before I can reply to her, she absently, like it is an accident, brushes my dick, sending sparks all through me. I exhale with delight, to feel this sensation again. As she stops behind me, she puts her hands on my shoulders and gives me a soft massage. As I start to relax at her comforting touch, she whispers in my ear, “I’m gonna need you today and I hope you will help me any way you can.”As I feel her hands work on my shoulders, an idea pops in my head, but Leet’s massage is so exquisite that I have difficulty focusing on anything. I close my eyes to better appreciate the moment. After few seconds, I reply to her, “You know I will help you however I can, it’s my—”“Good, I’m glad you are there for me,” she whispers, bringing her body closer to me until I can feel her breasts pressed against my back. As she puts more pressure on me, from her massage to her body against mine and her sensual presence, I’m lost in bliss, melting away to her will.She finally removes her hands and body from me, slowly, as if she doesn’t want to. I feel her move farther away from me, but I still feel her grip on me. Out of know where she slaps my right butt cheek.“Now, ready for our maintenance of the environmental systems. Let’s start this,” she tells me in an authoritative voice.As I open my eyes in surprise, she walks past me while looking back. The smirk on her face is so pronounced, she must be playing with me. The thought of earlier gets back on the top of my mind, although I still have difficulty figuring Anadolu Yakası Escort what it is.“Stop dreaming, Alex. The environmental systems will not upgrade themselves. Come here and help me as you promised,” she says in a more friendly tone.After shaking my head to clear my thoughts, I follow her and start the day. This specific maintenance is complex as the systems regulate the air, water, and temperature, basically everything that keeps us alive. There are two fully redundant systems, so while we are upgrading one, the other takes over the full load. The main concern is that if the other crashes or has an issue during the procedure, we are in deep shit. Fortunately, the first system is upgraded during the morning without incident. Unfortunately, I’m still chased by what Leet said to me before we started, even though I try to push it away and focus on my actual job.As 1200 arrives, I head upstairs to get my lunch, not having found any answer to that thought lingering in the back of my mind.As I get to the second floor, Bruce exits the stairs from the bridge, also getting his meal.“Hey. Isn’t it our alluring rookie? How is the upgrade going?” Bruce asks, with his usual charming smile, getting closer and closer to me as we head for the kitchen.Jumping over his not-so-subtle allusion, I answer him as I go to grab leftovers from yesterday evening. Turning toward with a plastic container in hand, I say, “It’s going great, the primary system has been—”I freeze as Bruce brings a hand to my face, slowly, as to grab the back of my head to bring me to him, to kiss. As I see his hand gets closer, I hold my breath, too surprised to push it back or move away. At the same time, I feel a surge of emotions in me, from fright and repugnance to desire and anticipation.Before my brain can decide what I should be doing, I feel Bruce’s hand reach my face, softly resting there. This simple touch sends thunder through me as if all of his desire for me rushes through his hand to my face. As the electricity reaches all my extremities, my eyes open wide, like I’m discovering something new, something I didn’t know was there.Bringing his face closer to me, Bruce tells me with the most sultry voice, “You have grease on your face, let me clean you.” Extending his thumb, he rubs it on my cheek, removing whatever I have on there. One pass, two passes, three passes, all going slower and slower, as if he is simply brushing my face, sharing a private moment. I look into his deep blue eyes, filled with hope, with desire, with lust. I’m getting lost in them, letting myself be bewitched by them, be attracted, moving my face closer.“Ahem!” I hear from behind me.His eyes lose their attraction as they break contact with mine. I breathe deeply, my lungs burning from the lack of oxygen. My brain refocuses on reality. Who is behind me? What would they think?Without skipping a beat, Bruce greats the newcomer, “Hi, Akari. I was helping Alex, he got some grease on his cheek.”I briefly close my eyes as I hear her name, afraid of what she will say.“Oh, really,” I hear her say before adding, “Let me help you clean him up.”Now, not only have I Bruce’s hand on my face, his eyes locked on mine, his smile even wider than before, Akari’s joins him with a nasty grin on hers, too happy to participate. Licking a finger, she brings it to my face, brushing my cheek in alternation with Bruce. Her soft finger brings me to a new height of lust, having her delicious presence alongside the so tempting body of Bruce, each building on the effect of the other. I’m rocked into the moment, building and building on the passion, until it is too much and I can’t take it.Moving back a step, I turn away from the complicit duo and go for the sink. Taking a cleaning rug, I rub furiously my cheek to remove whatever was there, if there was any. Only once it starts to burn that I stop, satisfied that there isn’t anything left, that they will have to leave me alone.Turning toward them, I quickly tell them as I’m breathing fast and with difficulty, “Should be gone now.”To add to the already tense situation, they are both holding their laughs. It infuriates me that they are playing with my emotions like this, but I take a deep breath to calm myself. This isn’t the time to take rash actions and particularly not the time to jump into the arms of another man.Bruce is the first one to move, extending his toned arms inside the fridge to retrieve a sandwich and a drink.Turning back to me, he tells me, keeping his sultry voice on, “Come to me if you have a spot to clean, a hitch to scratch, or a muscle to stretch, I’ll always be there for you.”I simply nod to him, unsure that my voice would not betray me, letting him know how excited I’m right now. At the same time, I’m sure he can tell, my erection is surely very visible through my clothes.With a wink and a last passionate look, he turns around and heads out of the kitchen. My eyes follow him as he exits, too focused on him to even remember that Akari is there. Although, she reminds me few seconds after Bruce is gone, grabbing my dick through my flight suit.“Oh, Alex, you are so on with Bruce,” she tells me while rubbing my glans, making me breathe deeply.Reminding myself why I’m here, I turn away from Akari and rush to the microwave, to heat my lunch. Not looking back at her, I say, “I don’t want to talk about it.”As I look at the countdown on the kitchen appliance, I feel her arms getting around me and grabbing my dick again. As I feel her breasts pressing against my back, she continues her torture on me, “I saw the look you were sharing with him, how you were getting closer with him, how you wanted to kiss him. I know you want him, Alex. Why can’t you accept it?”Her hands work their magic on me, making me more and more aroused, letting me entertain what just happened. As a desperate effort to refute her, I answer her with Anadolu Yakası Escort Bayan a whisper, “I’m not gay.”“We both know this, Alex. This doesn’t have anything to do with being gay or not. It’s about having a male friend which you share intimate moments of pleasure with. Why can’t you have fun with both sexes?” she counters.“Because it’s not who I want to be,” I reply almost inaudibly, still looking at the timer, wishing it was going faster.“Well, this is a different issue. Can you, at least, acknowledge that you are attracted to him, regardless if you want to pursue it or not?” Akari challenges me.Bip-Bip-Bip. The microwave is done. I quickly grab my lunch, almost burning myself. I burst out from her sexual embrace, feeling the heat of the discussion getting to me, not wanting to cum in my work attire. As I’m close to the door, I stop, not wanting to leave her like this.I turn toward her, a carnivorous smile on my face, full of the pumped-up energy that I’m accumulating since this morning. I tell her, in no uncertain terms, “Tonight, I’ll show you how much I love fucking a woman. I’ll make you beg to stop. Everyone, including Bruce, will know I’m fucking you to high heaven, he will be jealous of the attention I’m giving you.”“Looking forward to it,” Akari tells me, anticipation showing on her face. “Think about my last question and let me know your answer tonight.”I nod back at her and promptly leave the kitchen. I know that if I stay there, we will end up doing it right there. As I head back down, I take deep breaths, trying to relax my energized mind, my adrenaline-fuelled body, and my rigid cock.As I enter the engineering section, Leet sees me coming and wants to say something but holds off. It suits me, as my mind is far, far away, still in the kitchen with Bruce and Akari.As I sit beside her, I feel that Leet is eyeing me, but I ignore her, too focused on my game plan for tonight.“What did you get?” she eventually asks me.“Leftovers from yesterday,” I reply absently as I tell myself that I need to come up with new moves for Akari.Few seconds pass before her next question, “Do you like it?”“It’s awesome.” Oh, yeah, Akari will find it awesome.“You like sausages that much?”“I like spicy sausages a lot.” She will find my sausage spicy when I slide it right in.“For me, I like big and fat sausages.”“There are some left upstairs?” Akari will get to eat my big and fat sausage.“Not right now, but maybe tonight, if you want?”“Sorry, no sausage on the menu tonight. I think we have sushi.” I’ll stuff her sushi real good with my white cream.“I was thinking after dinner.”“Maybe there will still be some leftover if you are still hungry.” There will be no leftover, I’ll feed her everything.“Alex, I don’t think you get it. I want you, tonight.” Leet says, with a serious voice.“That’s what she said.” Oh, yeah.“I want you to fuck me, Alex. I want to be close to you, I want to feel you.” Leet repeats, with more insistence.“Can’t.” Because I’ll be fucking Akari good.“Alex, I feel alone. I need a friend right now and I want you. Why can’t you be with me?” she requests urgingly.“I need to stick it to Akari!” Repeatedly.“Okay, I get it, Alex. You don’t need to be obnoxious about it,” she says painfully.Her tone of voice makes me lose my focus, coming back to reality. I raise my head from my empty plate. What just happened? Why is she sad?“What’s going on, Leet?” I ask her, curious about her tone of voice.“Nothing, you made it very clear. Let’s get back to work,” she tells me as she rises from the workbench.Looking at the time, it is a quarter to 1300, lunch break is not done. Why is she like this? Have I said… Suddenly, I remember our conversation without the Akari filter and more precisely her last question. I was so caught up in my encounter with Bruce and Akari that I didn’t understand what she was saying. Shit, what have I done?“Leet, come back here. I think you—” I start to say, but Leet raises a hand, stopping me.“Don’t worry, no need to apologize. I’m a big girl, I understand when I’m not wanted. I need to work on something in the engine room. I’m sure you can do the secondary environmental system alone,” she tells me, as she goes for the door. Before I can say anything, she is gone, the door shutting behind her.Should I go after her? This is just a misunderstanding, but she told me that I do not have to apologize. Has she understood that I was in a different state of mind? But, she also said that she felt not wanted. What have I done? I’ve made her feel unwanted when it’s the opposite, but because I was so caught up in what happened in the kitchen, I’ve let her down. And now, I can’t go see her as she is in the engine room. Fuck, Alex, stop thinking with your dick for once.As the afternoon slowly crawls forward, my thoughts become darker and darker, as I’m chastising myself for my lack of sensitivity with Leet. Even though I’m keeping myself occupied with the upgrade, I keep looking at the door, just in case Leet is to come back. Unfortunately, I do not see her all afternoon, nor at dinner. By the time I’m joining the rest of the crew, I feel empty inside, like I was the one victim of my dickish attitude with her.I’m the last to arrive upstairs, a seat is reserved beside Akari for me. When she sees me get out of the stairs, she harbors a devilish grin, but it quickly evaporates as she sees my expression. As I sit, she doesn’t say anything but grabs my leg, acknowledging she saw I’m feeling down. I smile at her, my heart feeling better at her sight, but still. Keeping her eyes on me, she nods at the empty seats where Leet would be sitting. I look down and bob my head, confirming what is going on. She turns back toward the table but squeezes my legs to comfort me.Dinner goes through without a hitch, but I do not participate, not feeling like I deserve it. I even keep my head down, as I’m not sure Escort Anadolu Yakası I have the will to face the others. After we are done with the meal, Akari brings me to the couches. I follow her reluctantly, as I would prefer to just go in my room and sulk there until tomorrow.As I sit in front of her, she grabs my hands and asks me, “Okay, something is going on and I want to help you. What is it?”I deeply inhale and blurt out, “I think you will hate me.”“I doubt it, try me,” she tells me with a soft smile.“Just, please, don’t get mad,” I reply, fearing her reaction to what I did to Leet.“Alex, I’ll get mad if you don’t tell me, so you might as well,” Akari counters, keeping her smile on.With a big breath, I start to ramble my story, “You know the thing with Bruce. You were also there, but yeah, Bruce. He was so… I was so… I don’t know what happened.”As my brain is reliving the events earlier today, I stop talking, as my brain is overloaded with the experience. I feel Bruce’s hand on my face, his tenderness as he was brushing my cheek, his inviting smile, his lustful eyes…“Alex, get back to me,” Akari tells me while putting a hand on my legs, “What does it have to do with Leet?”Coming back to reality, I look at Akari with wide eyes, feeling ashamed of indulging again into those thoughts, to still entertain Bruce’s invite to let loose with him. I lower my head, feeling my guilt overwhelming me.“Alex. I didn’t want—” she starts to say, but I stop her with a raised finger.“You see how this gets me rattled. I was worse when I got back down in engineering, Leet could see I was feeling… You know… Excited,” I tell Akari, the first person I confess I’m getting excited at the sight of Bruce, a man.After few seconds of silence, where I’m chastising myself for having such a reaction, I continue my story, “I was so excited by the close call with Bruce. Your arrival into the spicy situation and your longing to see me with Bruce along with my defiance of everything telling me I should allow myself to be with him and my desire to show you how much I’m not going to fall into Bruce’s arms, it made that I was on Alpha Centauri, plotting a pumped-up sexual evening with you, not with Leet in engineering.”Akari is now looking down, having understood my situation, an event where she played a role in this whole mess. I continue before she goes too far into her reasoning, “I should have been listening to Leet, or at least tell her that I was taken by my problems. But I did not, I was not listening to what she was saying. I’m such a dick, I was thinking with it at the time. Finding ways to screw you to high heaven. Instead, I ended up hurting Leet and my relationship with her, while also wrecking our evening. I’m such a tool.”“Alex! You aren’t a tool. I’m responsible—” Akari starts to say, but I cut her again, denying her any responsibility in this.“No, you aren’t. I’m the one that didn’t pay attention to what she was saying, not you,” I start to tell her, getting angrier at myself as I recall my mistake, “I should have listened to her when she was telling me she was feeling alone. That she wanted to see a friend tonight. That she wanted me. But, no! I was too caught up in my desire to screw you that I was ignoring her. I’m such an imbecile. If I cannot see when a friend is in need, how can I be a good friend to her? How can I even be a good boyfriend to you if—”“Don’t say that, please don’t. You are a great person, Alex. You just made a mistake,” Akari tries to say, to comfort me.“Then, why do I feel so shitty? So, angry at myself? So…” I start to say before the dams open up. Suddenly, all of the tension of the day releases. My mind becomes numb, my body becomes weak, my arms fall to my side, my eyes become watery.“Oh, Alex,” Akari says as she embraces me.Putting my head on her shoulder, I let myself go, having a place where I can feel secure, where I feel welcome in all situations, where I can be really myself. Even though I feel the guilt and shame run through me, her body pressed against me helps to reduce the black void that opened up in me, sucking all of the great things and leaving behind the shitty stuff.As I finally start to relax, she tells me softly, “You need to go see her, explain what happened.”Sighing, I reply very softly, “I know. But, I want to spend time with you. Maybe not what we discussed earlier, but still spend time with you.”“I know you want. I also want to keep you close to me. I want to console you. But she is my friend who needs you tonight more than I do. If you don’t do it right now, the void between you two will grow until it cannot be closed,” she tells me, squeezing me even harder, giving me strength.I close my eyes in trying to arrange my thoughts. As much as I know I need to do it, I would like to stay like this forever, not bothering about anything else than to have Akari’s body pressed against mine, giving me life and purpose. Unfortunately, this is not how it works.“You need to go now, otherwise Leet will be charging and you’ll have to wait tomorrow to speak with her,” she encourages me, releasing her arms as she ends.Looking at her with loving eyes, I confess, “I wanted so much to be with you tonight, as I’ll see Natasha tomorrow. I’m sad that I’ll have to wait few days before we are with each other again.”“Well, consider this. We will be sleeping together tonight,” she tells me with a smirk.Frowning, I ask her, “How will we be sleeping together if I’m with Leet?”Softly laughing, she explains, “Leet needs to recharge each night. One side effect of it is that she becomes very hot from all the current flowing into her batteries, causing the AC in her room to run very cold. So, she doesn’t allow anyone to stay the night. When you leave her, come back to me, you’ll have a place beside me.”Widening my eyes at the explanation, I tell her with a soft smile, “I see. Then, I’ll see you later,” I wait for few seconds, losing my smile at the next question, “You think she will accept my apologies?”“I don’t know, Alex. There is only one way to know. Go before she transforms into a hot rod in a freezer,” Akari tells me while pushing me out of the couch.Softly laughing, I ask her, “I’m not your hot rod?”“Yes, you are, but not as hot as when she recharges.